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This is mildly confusing to me.

This weekend started off pretty badly, but in the end, it was pretty alright. I think the sadness I felt on Friday was a huge wake up call for myself. Mainly, I need to make some fucking friends. I need to have a life outside of exercising, work, and seeing my boyfriend. Maybe that seems really obvious to normal people, but to me it wasn’t. It’s time for some changes so I can hold my sanity together until March.

Anyways, I lucked out because there weren’t enough rooms in the hospital last night, so BF’s family couldn’t stay there. Actually, his mom urged him to stay with me, haha! I guess she knew how desperate and lonely I was :( Anyhow, he came to my place and we had dinner and then promptly fell asleep shortly after. Poor boy was exhausted and had to be up at 7 today to return to the hospital. I got up a few hours later and got ready to meet anyotherday (sorry, tagging doesn’t work on my outdated computer) and her friends for brunch. It was a nice time and it was great to get out and talk to real, living people. Thanks for inviting me!!! :) :) :)

After that, I hit up the grocery store by my house and came back home to clean. My house isn’t perfect yet, but it’s a hell of a lot better than before. I really need to do a thorough scrub-down of the bathroom but.. just not gonna happen today. After that I cooked up the meat I was meant to eat last night and now I’m sipping on some red wine. I keep forgetting that I have to go to work tomorrow. This week should be.. interesting. It’s my last week with my kindi class and then…. I don’t know what will happen. It’s going to be rough saying goodbye to those cuties. In addition to that, friend co-worker is in Thailand, so I won’t have anyone to talk shit with on Gchat during work, Boo.

SO, long story short, this weekend turned out to be fine. The time seems to pass much more slowly when you spend most of it alone! Perhaps it’s not such a bad thing after all.

Great news!

For some reason, BF doesn’t have to stay at the hospital tonight, so he’s going to come to my town. Luckily, I didn’t cook the meat yet, so we’ll grab a bite to eat and I think he can sleep here. I guess that meat will be tomorrow’s dinner.

I am really happy but my house is a wreck… Hope he doesn’t mind too much.
Also, I’ve already had a couple of glasses of wine so… Whoops.


ablondeinkorea Awww thanks bebe. That’s nice of you to say. Got any tv show or movie recommendations?

And btw to everyone who replied to my sad-sap posts last night, thanks a lot. It actually made me feel less alone. We should all be friends and hang out and stop being isolated. In a perfect world, eh?

I am making way too many text posts today, but whatever. This is why I shouldn’t be allowed to spend this much time alone. I am soooooo not an introvert.

I went out to Emart and decided I was gonna treat myself. Bought a mask pack and a black head nose strip thingy. Got some new BB cream. Decided I would cook some meat for myself tonight, so I got that and all the fixins to make it Korean style. I also found a cheap bottle of red wine, so hooray! BF called me while I was on the subway going back home. He sounded so tired and sad :( He said some of his co-workers will come for the funeral, so that’s nice. I kind of wondered if I should offer to go there too, but that was after we hung up. He’s supposed to call me again later, so I will ask him then. I won’t be offended if he says no, but I don’t want him to feel hesitant to ask me either.

Anyways, Tumblr, I’m gonna be here all night and potentially going to be tipsy-blogging, so feel free to ignore me.